Sometimes life smacks you in the face & says "Wake the hell up you stupid bitch"!

Monday was one of those days. I dreamt about a former boyfriend. I actually couldn't STOP thinking about him (still haven't) the past couple of days. This guy was great, yes, in all aspects. I really wish things had worked out between us, but his parents hated me and I couldn't cope with that. Apparently I was not good enough for their son. :::sigh::: Anyway, in the end, I was a complete bitch to him. Nope, nothing new as far as me being a bitch, but it was to the point I was actually ashamed of myself!

Well, today I spent some time trying to locate said former boyfriend. I think I might have succeeded LOL I left a very odd message for someone that might be a complete stranger, but he has the sexiest voice I've heard since my Hilton Head days. *Ooh la la*

I'm on a mission to get my karma back on track. After all, this year is the big FOUR OH MY GOD! There are people from my past that meant a lot more to me than they ever realized, the memorable people, the people who in some way (big or small) were influential in my becoming the person I am today. Some of those people I owe apologies to, said former boyfriend being one of them, some of those people I just need to reconnect with. Once again it's ~*~just do your thing~*~ I waited too freakin' late to tell Mrs. G and now look at me! Haunted by memories & things left unsaid. I know she knew she was important to me, I know she knew I loved her son and I also know she knew why her son & I could never be together, but she didn't get to know about the twins born just 3 days before her death. I didn't call her during my pregnancy, the longest period ever of not talking to her... a day late, a dollar short is extremely understating the situation.

No, I'm not being morose, I'm just taking action before I screw up and wait too long again! Wish me luck.

~Ciao